I’ve always loved the ocean. But anyone who’s stood knee-deep in the surf knows the power of an undertow. One minute you’re grounded, digging your toes into the sand—and the next, a wave pulls everything out from under you. Suffering can arrive like the rogue wave knocking you off your feet, or the undertow that tugs at you with power—but you know it is coming and are therefore more prepared. In many ways, it may seem like we are exiting a suffering season, in a suffering season, or about to enter one. Some are distracting, and some are devastating. I used to think with age and experience I’d get better at suffering. But it’s not something you master. Each wave is different. Each pain reveals something new. But, because of these unique features, we learn something different, we experience resilience previously unknown, and sometimes wisdom to pay forward. And… sometimes suffering is so intense, so acute, and so all-consuming, we are unsure of our survival. The waves toss us around so violently that we fight for the surface and a gulp of air before we are submerged once more. In one of my seasons of suffering, I couldn’t find the words to pray. In the middle of the night, I would lie on the floor in the living room with my head resting on my Bible. It was comforting. After many nights of quiet, I heard God say, “I am with you.” He had never really left my side but waited until I was still before speaking. Suffering is inevitable as mere humans—being human. Every faith, belief system, and philosopher attempts to understand suffering—its purpose, its source. I have, with years, age, and experience with suffering seasons of many kinds, discovered that I have learned to trust God more. I am more aware of His presence. These verses are embedded in my thoughts, and I sometimes speak them into the silence of my prayer space: “Yet I am always with you; you hold me by my right hand.
You guide me with your counsel, and afterward you will take me into glory.”
Psalm 73:23-24 (NIV) These are His promises. Not the kind that erase suffering, but the kind that hold you steady when the storm keeps battering. If you’re suffering now, please know this: Jesus never wastes our pain. He meets us in it. And while we may long for escape, He offers transformation. That’s the heart behind Anticipating Heaven—learning how to live and suffer with eternity in view. If you’re navigating a difficult road, I encourage you to also explore the Healthy Longevity Guide, which offers perspective and practical hope. I’m still learning, still walking, still healing. And I no longer take a single step for granted.
